1000 kali kebaikan dalam satu!

As-salam 

Alhamdulillah, Allah S.W.T permudahkan urusanku menjadi 'ustazah'. Projek ke-2 sedang berlangsung iaitu mengendalikan aktiviti murid-murid Islam pada waktu rehat mereka dengan aktiviti-aktiviti sepanjang bulan Ramadhan ini. Lancar sahaja lidah berbicara. Alhamdulillah, murid pun beri perhatian kepada bebelan aku. Hihi. Harap-harap tak adalah perkara yang tidak diingini. Bukan berharap kepada markah, tapi LillahiTaala. InshaAllah. 

Bulan-bulan puasa ni rugi kalau bercakap perkara yang sia-sia kan? Tiada bulan lain selain bulan Ramadhan yang kita diberikan ganjaran gandaan pahala sehingga 1 000X! Kenapa kalau produk kolagen kalau kandungannya sehingga 1 000 000mg berharga RM150.00 kita beli? Kenapa pahala percuma kita tak amalkan? Pelik! Tapi itulah manusia. Doa, itu senjata orang Mukmin. Berdoalah supaya kita sentiasa Istiqamah dalam beribadat. Allah S.W.T Maha Besar, Maha Melihat, Maha Mendengar. 

Aku sendiri merasa susah nak suaikan diri. Bila tengok satu-satu perkara, ada sahaja yang mahu aku cakapkan. "Baju dia tak matching!", "Pasaipa muka tak flawless?", "Kenapa depa bagi kita kerja banyak sangat?", sumpah macam-macam yang terlintas. Dosa? Ya, tetap berdosa. Mengumpat namanya. Cepat-cepat isytifar! Ya Allah, apa yang dah aku lakukan? Aku telah mensia-siakan hariku Ya Allah. 

Ramadhan bulan yang mulia. Bulan yang mana Allah S.W.T berikan kesempatan kepada kita untuk gandakan amalan-amalan dengan gandaan yang tinggi dan tidak terdapat dalam bulan-bulan yang lain. Masya Allah. Begitu sayang Allah pada kita, kan? Tulisan hari ini memang tak dirancang. Ikhlas dari hati. Entah kenapa tangan ni rajin sahaja menaip hari ini. Tulis blog boleh, kajian tindakan masih lagi di muka surat yang sama. Haiissh. 

Projek hari ini lebih bertemakan kepada bulan Ramadhan. Untuk tahap 1, aku tayangkan video mengenai 'Bismillah'. Aku tekankan kepada murid-murid tentang penggunaan kalimah 'Bismillah'. Alhamdulillah, mereka faham. Siap boleh bagi contoh-contoh lagi di mana nak guna atau terapkan kalimah suci ini. Betul perpatah orang tua, nak melentur buluh, biar daripada rebungnya. Bila kecil-kecil lagi lidah dah biasa dibasahi zikrullah, InshaAllah bila besar nanti tak menjadi masalah untuk dia mengamalkannya. Tahap dua pula lebih bersifat kompleks yang mana aku sajikan dengan tayangan slides mengenai Ramadhan dan puasa. Aku nak mereka faham kenapa mereka berpuasa, rukun dan syarat sah puasa dan lain-lain. Alhamdulillah, walaupun hanya sekadar 'flash back' sahaja, tetapi mereka tetap beri perhatian. Nasib ada sahabat yang banyak membantu dan memahami. Alhamdulillah, Allah permudah urusan kami. 

Bulan Ramadhan ni babah tak jadi balik. Ada lawatan di sana. InshaAllah paling awal pada bulan Syawal nanti. Kami hanya berkesempatan tatap wajah dari jauh sahaja. Babah pun cuma tengok wajah cucu sulung dari Facebook. Di usia 54 tahun, dia sepatutnya berehat dan belajar ilmu Agama, bukannya bekerja dan berjauhan dari keluarga. Baru tadi buka Fb, tengok gambar babah. Ya, babah dah kurus. Susut. Tiada lagi benjolan-benjolan. Alhamdulillah, babah sihat, tapi aku sedih. Betul-betul sedih. Tak faham dengan pandangan orang lain yang terlalu cintakan kerja. Aku faham babah pergi berkhidmat untuk Negara. Jujur, aku faham! Aku bukan budak kecil. Cuma, aku hairan dengan orang-orang yang 'berjiwa rakyat'. Melawat kawasan perang pada 1 Syawal? 1 Syawal? Depa ni tak ada keluarga ke apa? Ternyata agenda 2 in 1. Melawat sambil melancong. Typikal, kan? 

Allah Maha Mengetahui. Mungkin itu yang terbaik untuk kami. Aku redha. Sangat tak sabar menunggu detik bulan November! Awal bulan November, babah dijangka pulang ke Malaysia. InshaAllah :) 

Babah (kanan): ZAINAL ABIDIN B. HJ M. SAID

Kadang-kadang aku rasa bosan dengan hidup aku. Bukan bosan dengan perjalanan hidup, tapi bosan dengan segala kerja remeh-temeh duniawi yang kena diselesaikan. Tapi, bila teringat babah, rasa penat tu hilang. Rasa malu sebab aku hidup dalam keadaan yang lengkap selesa, tapi babah? Tidur pun tak lena sebab fikirkan anak-anak buah, keluarga. Aku solat dan tidur dalam keadaan selesa, tapi babah? Saudara-saudara di Palestine, Mesir? Nak solat pun susah. Apakah kita masih lagi tidak bersyukur?

Memang betul orang cakap, orang kidal ni berfikiran jauh, luas dan mendalam. Ya, aku kidal. Kadang-kadang aku sendiri rasa rimas sebab terlalu banyak terfikir. Tapi, alhamdulillah, sebab aku banyak berfikirlah aku berada di tempat aku sekarang, dengan izin Allah S.W.T. 

Salam Ramadhan :) 

Have fun today.

As-salam

Sounds klise, right? Something a sporting mom usually says, "Have fun today, kids!" when her kids off to the mall or seeing friends. Haha. Most of it, not happening in Malaysia. But well anyways, the tittle is regarding to something that has been in my mind for quite something. You see, I was blog walking this morning that I put my head into a friend's blog, something about confession about how she felt lately, and a part of it is about 'MENGUMPAT'! Yes, talk bad about other people.

I admit, most of time now my friends and I usually just sit, eat and talk from a topic to another, wasting time like konon a sisterhood talk. It's okay by me, because I don't usually pay too much attention towards it and tend to forget the minute I walk away from the room, and so not my habit to retell stories to others. But, when it comes to private or privacy stuffs like so, I became annoyed that I think 'the involve person' feeling too good about itself. Like I mention in my previous entry, she talks bad, she talks back! When you talk bad about a person, the person somehow will talk bad back to you to others. And, even worse. It's as simple as that.

I believe Allah S.W.T has bigger plan for us. Maybe, he wants a person to be extremely happy about how they are today because they tend to be 'not so happy' in future. Like, when we were talking bad about a person appearance, about how fat or ugly she is and how you want people to praise your beauty, maybe Allah S.W.T had decided that the fat ugly women is going to turn out to be a married women and a mother to extremely beauty with brain child. Who knows?

What ever we are doing is not going to result now. So, be careful of every words we are saying. Do not let the words eat us, okay? This is nothing personal, but I am hoping that we all can change the way we see other people. See it positive! People judge us from what we are doing and the words coming out straight from the  mouth. Talking bad about others and feeling too good about oneself is making others see more of us - about the way we think and how conservative we are.

Maybe, whatever we were saying are all true, but it's not our job to judge people. Don't take God's job.

EGO.IS.ME. ?

As-salam

Despite of me being a housewife for the week, I am doing the home chores while watching TV. Sweeping and moping, my eyes stay at TV, except for commercials of course. On the episode of the New Girl, the best friends, Cece, happens to not-telling Jess about her hook-up with the housemate (Forgot the name!). And, Jess knows about it by accident. Well, it is pretty the same about what I am facing here. I thought this semester break will finally break me from all the heart-ache regarding this, yet, SO HOPELESS!

It is sort of my fault about not texting her to meet up. But, the thing is, I am waiting for her to text me to meet up. She's the busy one. She should text me, instead. I don't know if this is what people name as, EGOTISM. Or, EGO.IS.ME.

I thought of already loosing her. She rarely tell me anything, about what's going on in her life. I noticed it like ever, but I never speak. I only ignore. But, I guess it reaches the limit to where I cannot sit back anymore. Pity. 

Where is my Ted, Barney and Robin?

As-salam =)

The sisters always urging me to catch up with them in the TV series they have been watching. I for some reason hate to do so because I could just stuck, like so bad. But, there are series I've been stuck with these days - Walking Dead (WD) & How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM).

HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER

HIMYM is about a friendship of five people, start off as a friend and long couple since collage between Marshal and Lily, be friend with Ted Mosby, happened to be roomate. Then, the career start and Ted bumps on this stranger, Barney Stinson at a bar while having his heart break. Barney taught him abut how to be cool and kicks girl when he saw this TV Personality, Robin Sherbatszky. So, it's kind of went out from there until the day Ted found the mother for his children.

But, in this case, neither I nor Fendi plays the role of Ted Mosby. I look myself to more like Lily, while Fendi play more to Marshal Ericson (they seem alike too - gaining weight and double chin). No sweat, okay dear? Hehe. But in our life, there is no Ted, Barney and Robin. We are actually alone. I found a certain someone who could play the role of playboy Barney, but happened to not fit the role of 'I will always be there' Barney, OR, 'I am your friend' Barney. It is just, 'I am only going to be there when things are good' Barney. Sucks!

For Robin, maybe my best friend could go with the character, but the thing is, I don't know if I still have one. Technically, we are falling apart. And it's just for how things had changed these days. So, no Robin just yet. 

Ted Mosby, it's just hard to find one. I have not found my Robin, so technically, still no sign for Ted.

Something about their friendship that caught my attention. Robin has been dating with Ted and also Barney, yet still managed to sit around and have fun, even so personal feeling might jump over one or two. And still, being the best friend. I can hardly gather five of my friend to sit along and having fun. But, the fact is, I don't have that number of friends. Most tend to be plastic when it comes to reality. It is just me and Fendi. And yes, we do have some couples to go out with, but most of them don't last long and some were married, and some prefer to stay low. It's just hard to look for one.

I've always been admire girl-best-friend. I don't know how they could just sit and be best friend in a large group of best friend. I tent to get jealous when it comes to friendship that I wish the friend could just not being picky in placing her 'ALL TIME FAVORITE'. Instead of just that, why don't she treats all to just fair and square? Better, isn't it?

TO THE AWESOMENESS OF A FRIENDSHIP

LILY IN REALITY

ALYSON HANNIGAN

I wish to find my Ted, Barney and Robin as soon as possible. 

Double the laughter.

As-salam 

In my previous entry, I wrote about one typical thing about friends. Now that the entry had became one big reality, we just have to work this out. Do as planned. And, that's it. But, simple thing may something be more burdensome than one more complicated. The thing is, now that you know how they were - fake act and fake smile, do nothing about it. Smile. Their laugh can only be heard now, not then. While, we can laugh now and laugh even harder when they finally realize how stupid they were. 

Double the laughter.

Friends, judge them by counting who sit near you when things are falling apart, and who sit the longest. Most people have amount of friends only when they reach the top, not when they met the bottom. So, now that you know the truth, stick it to your mind, to never trust anybody except you.

Honest opinion, been there.

When things are just hard enough, you insisted to put rock on me.

As-salam

Things are just getting worse these days. We were falling apart, doing own things and not considering loyalty and spirit. It's just, I am glad that you can finally feel and see everything I've been through. 

"When things are just hard enough, you insisted to put rock on me" 

(Yaya Qiestina, 2012)

I am more matured now, thanks to you. But sorry, by matured, it doesn't mean to easily forgive and forget of what you did to me when everything turns it back on me. You just make my day hard enough to live, with the fake smile and acts. Damn, hate it! Now, that things has finally reveal the true you, I am glad. So that you can learn to give-and-take and to consider - not taking control of everything as if you are just best enough! I don't know how many times I might need, but I am still hurt.

I knew all about the 'talking bad' behind my back, believe me. It is so obvious that you are that somebody who could talk bad about others. Now, its your turn to experienced it. So, good luck, then! I considered myself as one good friend since I can actually wish you best luck :P

I don't give a damn about what might be happening. The thing is, I don't really care. Serve you well. Remember the quota,

"What goes around, comes around" - 

(Tiada tajuk)

As-salam =)

Aku selalu takut akan ketibaan Hari Kiamat. Terbayang anak yang menangis sorang-sorang, sekalian manusia berkeliaran tak tahu arah tuju, bangunan runtuh, wanita yang mengandung beranak sambil berlari. Itulah imaginasi seorang kanak-kanak, iaitu aku sewaktu aku berumur 9 tahun. Aku teringat lagi tentang petanda seseorang itu akan mati yang kawan aku sampaikan (tak ingat nama, ok!). Dia cakap, "Ha ha.. mata putih awak dah ada warna biru sikit-sikit. Awak dah nak mati!". So, masa itu aku sangatlah percaya. Menangis aku kat situ jugak sebab takutnya pada mati. Sesiapa aje bila bicarakan tentang 'meninggalkan dunia' akan terus cuak. Jarang sekali orang nak suka atau seronok kerana masing-masing tahu 'bekalan' masih lagi tidak mencukupi. Ada juga ketika bila waktu 'insaf' tu datang, aku akan mengaji (masa tu masih Muqaddam) dan berbuat baik sepanjang hari.

Tapi, bila fikir-fikir balik, "Ustaz cakap nanti akan ada satu golongan yang kepalanya berbonggol seperti unta. Itu tanda Kiamat hampir tiba". So, aku kembali ke rutin harian. Tahun 1999 masih tak nampak kelibat wanita 'berbonggol unta'. Kira macam bersanggul tinggilah. Wanita berambut panjang, sengaja diikat tinggi rambutnya itu. Bagi yang berambut pendek pula, dipakainya 'sanggul palsu' supaya tudungnya nampak lebih terletak dan kemas. Kononnya! 

Carian Google: Sanggul palsu

Carian Google: Sanggul palsu juga!

Hadith nya adalah seperti berikut. 

Persamaan bonggol unta dan trend sekarang

So, sudah sedia maklumlah tentang kebanjiran bonggol-bonggol unta ni. Ini menandakan Kiamat sudah semakin hampir. Beralih ke tanda Kiamat seterusnya iaitu bunyi dari perut Bumi. Tak silap aku seperti ngauman yang dikatakan di dalam Al-Quran. Hari ini (21/1/2012), aku terbaca satu post mengenai 'suara aneh' di Kota Samarahan di blog ini. Aku pun Google search untuk maklumat lanjut. Ya Allah! Kita kini selangkah lagi menuju Kiamat. Aku takut! Aku pun masih tak cukup bekalan ke sana. Paling penting ialah, aku masih berstatus 'Bujang'. Jika ditakdirkan Allah S.W.T , aku tergolong dalam golongan hamba-Nya di penghujung nyawa Bumi, izinkan aku mati sebagai seorang isteri. Ini bukan soal gatal nak kahwin ke apa, cuma lebih besar syafaatnya sebagai seorang isteri. Cita-cita aku ialah untuk mati sebagai seorang isteri. 

Coretan ini ikhlas dari aku. Aku tulis dengan hati. 

Wallahu'alam. 

Sebarkan cerita ini supaya lebih ramai yang tahu tentang betapa hampirnya Kiamat dengan kita.  Aku tak sempurna. Jauh sekali alim. Aku masih berbatu-batu dari Al-Jannah Mu. 

Like seriously, no guarantee.

As-salam

I was browsing through my albums of snapshot just now. Most things about me had changed. And some of it just vanished that I started to change into this much mature and grown up a.k.a adult. It’s not that I missed my old self, just I truly grateful to God to have lend me this opportunity to become His better servant :’(

I am grateful to have met him. He changed most things about me, lending his hands for my rise and my fall. I begin to remember about time when my sister and I had this conversation about how mother is truly grateful about me behaved and starting or deciding to have the hijab on. I did know that, just I don’t have a clue about how happy she became and truly grateful to Allah S.W.T.

I begin to wonder, what if things are not like this. Will I stop being a spoil brat at the age of 22? When would I be at the weekend? No idea.

I pray for things to turn well.

I still have the anger inside of me but it’s in control position that I starting to think clearly, most of time minus the ‘full moon’. Just, I can’t help it when it comes to ‘the third person’. I could lose control that I surely will slap or punch her and talk stupid out load and even could spits on her. Don’t try me because there’s no guarantee that I can feel my arms or control my body, like seriously.

But, whatever it is, I pray for it to not happen so that my bad habit will remains a secret until I graduated.

2006

2008 - Raya AidilFitri Jab. PJK IPGKTB

Willingly to wear hijab - 2008

2009 - Not even stylish

2010 - Family dinner

2011 - Present: Full time hijabers. InsyaAllah.

Pray for me.

Thanks.  

Everybody keeps writing about New Year

As-salam =)

It is officially 2012 now. And, seems like bloggers take this for granted to write about typical 'New Year resolutions', 'new hope', 'aims' and 'ambitions', like yawn! Are you really going to strive for that? Only about 20% people strove hard for it. Another 80% left without saying (not even realizing it at all - including me). Haha. What about that? I must say, the 80% are just being normal, for being easy to live a life; live life with no pressure. 

I didn't really thought about resolutions. I have none to be specific. I just hope for the best, always. I pray to My God, Allah S.W.T for one better life, give me times to serve the parents, the family and all the people around me; to enlighten their days, provide them hopes and hands to hold on to. Insya-Allah. It's part of the job as a teacher.    

2012 - Also will be a big year to my elder sister, FARHAH MARHAINI as she soon to be a wife to a man she knew for years, IMRAN IBRAHIM. Although the weeding is not yet to come, but bride is as busy as ever. Haha. 

2012 - Is also one of my big year as I soon will start my practicum here at schools. I really nervous about facing these youngsters and really don't have the idea on how to communicate with the teachers. You see, I have these inferior complex deep inside myself. I am too afraid to not give people on what they need. I am too afraid to make mistakes now, even did I knew that ones learn from mistakes they made. 

YayaQiestina as a teacher :p

Other than that big days, it is not totally decided. Allah S.W.T plan is not yet to come. So, praying for the best in life. 

Insya-Allah =)

Custom made burger :p

As-salam =)

It was one happy week where the family can actually spend time together. We were talking about passed childhood and about games we played when Kakak suddenly remains me of the game of 'burger' we used to do. Haha it was one exciting and so-much-fun game!

Imagine, a burger like this,

Can actually be made by humans trapped inside :p Sort of like this, 

Just, our burger is more like a size of Burger King, with three layer of burger; kakak at bottom, Sarah on top, while I trapped in between. Wawa, she rarely joins since she's too small to play. Was about three years at the time. We made our burger but putting a cushion onto one another until all are being squished by it. It is one precious moment to me. I sort of forget those things lately, since I was in high school. We all did. It is fun if we had the chance to do it one more time.

Please stop.

As-salam 

Honestly, I am humiliated, sometimes about how people make jokes of it! It is hard to take a little not too personally about it. It's hard to believe to hear it from that someone! I am heart-ache! It is hypocrite! I understand it as a big lie! 

I really wish that it wasn't coming from you. :'(

It is sad and frustrating at the same time. Don't you remember the last time we fought? I am getting better each day I live now that I pray not to make the same mistakes again. Believe me, I do! I wish for you to like him. 

Please! 

I just don't know what to say. I am just too emotional to get through with. I may get mad easily when it comes to this. I still don't know how to have a talk with you. So, until I do, please. I really really really hope that you could just stop irritating and hurting me! 

I am begging you, hard. I might not be able to hang on a little longer. I am afraid that I might burst. 

PART1: Aku pun hodoh juga!

As-salam =)

Dah lama sangat rasanya aku tak post dalam Bahasa Malaysia, kan? Tiba-tiba rasa rindu! Post dalam BM ni lebih senang nak express feeling. Oh, sudah! Dah jadi ‘bahasa rojak’ daa... Haha inilah akibatnya kalau lidah terlatih dengan satu perkara saja. Jadi sikit kekok! Tulis dalam BM pun ayat susah nak keluar ‘bahasa pasar’. Asyik-asyik ‘bahasa baku’. Hmm..

24.10.2011 – 12.45 tengahari :

Aku masih di sekolah, berehat-rehat di Bilik Sakit yang mama dan aku hias. Pedih rasanya muka ni dek bahang sang matahari. Sg. Petani dah makin panas sekarang. Pukul 10.00 pagi pun teriknya hingga menangkap ke kepala. Pening! Asyik-asyik expose to sunlight! Kalau hari-hari macam ni, bila baru boleh aku cerah balik?

Mama baru aje kol aku, minta aku ke naik ke kelas 3 Maju. Sesi bergambar la! What else? Mama minta aku tangkap gambar ruang-ruang kelasnya. Mama sangat eager, seolah-olah macam satu arahan pula! Haha. ‘kau tak buat, kau mati!’. Takutnya! So, aku pun dengan malasnya melangkah ke blok sebelah dan naik ke tingkat satu. Tangkap gambar sikit (ambil syarat jek!) then turun balik ke Bilik Sakit.

Mata aku tertancap ke satu sudut. 

PONDOK REHAT

Aku teringat lagi satu kejadian yang berlaku sembilan tahun lepas di pondok rehat tu. Aku, Jannah, Bariah dan Nadhirah memang empat sekawan. Anak pegawai, so seolah-olah kami ni already build up a team. Lebih serasi. Plus, hidup pun  berjiran. Sembilan tahun lepas, aku berumur 12 tahun. Aku sangat hodoh – berbadan besar, mata sepet, berkulit gelap, gigi tak tersusun, bau badan, kurang cerdik, tak aktif, kurang berkemahiran, dll. Dalam selection untuk persembahan Hari Anugerah Cemerlang, nama aku langsung tak tersenarai. Sedih! Sedangkan kawan-kawan aku yang lain semuanya dipanggil untuk persembahan tersebut. Tinggallah aku sorang-sorang terkontang-kanting.

Aku kecil hati! Aku sangat terasa!

Bukan salah kawan-kawan, tapi salah cikgu yang menilai! Bila dah dewasa dan bakal menjadi seorang guru, aku lebih faham kenapa cikgu tak pilih aku. Cuma, kata-kata yang cikgu tersebut lontarkan pada aku ketika tu membuatkan aku lebih mengasingkan diri. Aku tak yakin! Aku malu dengan diri sendiri! Di pondok itulah aku menangis semahu-mahunya. Aku tak peduli budak-budak lain yang lalu-lalang. Persetankan!

Bila di IPG, satu kejadian yang hampir serupa berlaku pada aku. Aku terus teringat kejadian masa di sekolah dulu. Kejadian ni lah! Aku seolah-olah hilang keyakinan diri. Aku kembali rasa hodoh! ... and major looser! Bukan mudah untuk aku bangkit semula dari kejatuhan. Tak mudah! Masa yang aku ambil sangat panjang dan kadang-kadang aku terbawa-bawa perasaan tu. Aku tak professional!

Di usia yang hampir mencecah 22 tahun, perlahan-lahan aku bina keyakinan aku terhadap diri sendiri. Aku mula sayangkan diri dengan beri lebih peluang untuk aku perbaiki kesalahan. Aku belajar untuk kurangkan sikap ‘perfectionist’. ‘Perfectionist’ sebenarnya hanyalah alasan yang aku reka bagi menutup kelemahan aku mengawal emosi, terutama apabila masyarakat di sekitar bercerita tentang kekurangan diri aku. Aku selalu ingat yang aku mampu memuaskan hati pelbagai pihak dalam satu masa, tapi tak! Aku salah! Aku bukannya Malaikat. Sedangkan Nabi-nabi terdahulu pun berbuat dosa kepada Allah S.W.T, inikan pula hamba biasa di akhir zaman. 

5 SOS 1/2007

As-salam =)

I was on my laptop when a friend of mine starting to chat. He was my schoolmate and also a classmate. He was just being friendly by asking where am I when I suddenly had a feeling of missing my school time and my friends. Things are getting tough these days. Sometimes I wish that I could just get away from this new life of mine for awhile. 

Even though I have met my soul mate and I was rather blessing, but I wish that I could choose both at one time; being in my past (school time) with my soul mate by my side. I would like to add and remove some parts of my entire school time. But, I just knew, it just not going to happened. =)

I never regret of my pass. Because my pass who made me into a woman I am today. I am luckily to face a hard situation in my teenage life. I rather have my heart broken earlier than later. 

This is my boring and dead class. But I just love it way too much. 

It's 8.30am, okay! Time to sleep.

Palat (on the right) had finally awake from his beauty sleep LOL

Talking about 'nasi lemak'

Okay, nasi lemaks are here! Pay! Pay! Pay!

My class consists of 11 boys and four girls. We were the only class of Social Science at the time (always will be!). Its funny how I can really survive this kind of situation. =) Well, believe me or not, I was always on top of my class, even though I never study, like seriously! Haha.

Let me tell you a secret, I had a '8' for my SPM Additional Mathematics, yet I was on top of my class. Still. Haha. Imagine! Dead class, isn't it? But, that's what people always say,

"You can never have two Einsteins in a school". 

So, that's why we Science Social people being so humble and low - giving way to Einstein. Haha. But for me,

"They are my Einsteins. They care for me, care for each and everybody in the class of 5 SOS 1/2007. They were shoulders to cry on. They were my bodyguards and Dr. Love".

But, my kind of life nowadays is like,

You fall, you fall on your own.

You achieved glory, you said it was your own.

You talk nice, but behind you just talking shit

You act like care, but you just don't care

An Afternoon tutti fruti frutti

As-salam =)

My sisters and I, we spent the entire late afternoon enjoying the quite-a-cost ice-cream in cups. Strawberry-choc and Kiwi-yogurt ice-cream. Nyum! nyum! Honestly, it is a MUST TRY and perfect for teen hangout, or couple, perhaps? 

Nice place, though! I must suggest to open one in Mengkuang, Bkt. Mertajam. 

Most important thing, we had so much fun! It's my sibling precious time! And the parents, Babah and Mama, accidently met us there (or, aren't they? hmm.. are they spying on us?). haha. Lawak pulak nak spy segala! haha. Ingat ni zaman remaja ke apa?

She's so excited thinking about what-a-cost ice cream!

Nyum! nyum! Raya day-4 at Frutti Frutti

Sisters afternoon out

It's so important to spend quality time now... 'cause thing might be changed in a nick of time. Everybody's getting busy, been out studying. All left are just moments. As for Farhah, this might be her last year to be in touch as she might be a bit 'busy' with a new life. Myself, in two years time, I'll be out teaching in a place not-near-home, which I also don't know. Same goes to Wawa, as in two years, she'll finish her high school and go somewhere else. Sarah, she'll spend most of her four years Civil Engineering at Batu Pahat. 

So,

We can only hangs on to memories, the best moments of sisterhood and family.

LOVE THE FAMILY!

Siapa kata mereka hina?

As-salam =)

Ada segelintir masyarakat menganggap bahawa kanak-kanak kurang upaya (OKU) ini sebagai insan yang hina. Malah, ada ibubapa yang sanggup menyembunyikan anak mereka yang OKU di dalam rumah, kononnya malu anak mereka tidak dilahirkan sempurna. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya mereta tidak sedar betapa beruntungnya mereka dipilih Allah S.W.T! Anak jenis ini syurga tempat mereka. Sesungguhnya anak-anak ini yang akan menghulurkan tangan tatkala ibu dan bapanya hendak dicampakkan ke neraka. Ya Allah, beruntungnya mereka!

Sejujurnya, aku pernah mempunyai perasaan takut untuk mendekati mereka yang OKU, terutamanya syndrome down. Alasanya, reaksi mereka tidak boleh dijangka atau dalam erti kata lain agresif. Tapi, Allah S.W.T telah menjodohkan aku dengan insan-insan seperti ini. Nur Syukrina bt. Ahmad, insan pertama yang aku dekati. Ina sangat suka dan sayangkan aku. Mana-mana aku pergi, dia akan ikut. Makan dan mandi semuanya kalau boleh dia nak aku yang lakukan untuk dia. Ina sangat manja! Tak hairanlah Fendi sangat sayangkan dia.

25.8.2011, aku menjejakkan kaki ke kelas Pendidikan Khas, SK Sg. Petani. Hajatnya cuma nak duduk seminit dua, tapi lain pula yang jadi. Aku jadi sangat tersentuh dengan kanak-kanak ini. Sayu dan bersimpati. Tapi, bila difikirkan kembali, sepatutnya mereka yang sayu dan bersimpati kepada kita, insan-insan yang dilahirkan normal. Syurga atau neraka kah tempat kita?

Fikir-fikirkanlah. 

4th August SO-COOL! gathering

As-salam =)

I know it was too late to update about an event happened on last 4th August 2011. But, I really have something I thought was cool to share with readers. Last 4th August, I had attend a break-fast gathering at McD Seberang Jaya with KRS crews, consists of numbers of Malays and Chinese. It was a happening gathering that everyone seems to have so much fun and enjoyed oneself. The Chinese, they even wait for us to break our fast. =) It was cool and polite, though! And this is what we call as, 1 MALAYSIA! 

The Chinese, all of them are good. We joke and laugh, and laugh a lit' harder. I also hug them tight! I even speak to one I haven't speak in like years. It's not like I don't like her, just I never try to speak to her. It was a mistake. How I wish the time run a bit slow, so that I could really get to know her better. 

I totally enjoyed myself and alhamdulillah, I can cope up with the situation and blend really well. I can't even stop smiling =)  'til now. But the mist important part is, I have my Chenta to share the happiness with. It was a memorable event! And hope to gather soon. From the positive feedbacks, I know the KRS crew will last forever. InsyaAllah. =)

My Sweet 21st Birthday Celebration!

As-salam =)

3rd August 2011, is such a beautiful day, full of thankful! My dear Chenta, Khairul Effendi b. Ahmad, he arranged a surprise dinner-birthday celebration, specially made for me, helped by Yie. I felt so grateful for all he did, how he really motivated to surprise me well. It was not like we had planned it! We agreed to celebrate my 21st birthday + our 3rd year Anniversary this weekend, purposely to cut short the expenses. But, it doesn't matter anyways as long as I really enjoy my 3rd August. :) Thanks a lot, dear Chenta! 

Here are some photos =)

Tiramisu cake from Secret Recipe 

Oh my, my Chenta, he's so happy!

My Chenta & the only birthday guess, Yie

Favorite snapshot of all time. love it!

My 21st birthday presents - love-shaped pillow, domokun & additional special gift

Here's a sincere message, specially dedicated for you:

"I really didn't expect all these. A humble thank you from me to you. I really appreciate it! I love my birthday present, especially the 'Tajwid'. I love it the most! You made me wanna burst into tears. I love you so! I was so thankful to Allah S.W.T to have the opportunity to meet somebody like yourself. You're priceless!"

It was a great memory, though! 

Thank you!

Welcoming Ramadhan

As-salam =)

Happy fasting, dear friends! I was truly excited about this Ramadan. 

Yet, feeling lit' gloomy that I will not be able to see and get involve with my lit' sister, Shasha fasting days. 

It must be exciting to see a kid trying to fast for the first time, aite? 

hehe.

As for myself, I was trying to search for my courages:

1. to do my Subuh pray at surau
2. have a proper sahur and 
3. do my Terawih. 

I wish.

Ya Allah, send me some of your Taufiq.

Help me, Ya Allah.    

I love the way he behaved.

As-salam =)

I JUST LOVE THE WAY HE BEHAVED!

They played together and she loved him.

They played together and she enjoyed it.

I was grateful to know and have him in my life.

He changed me.

He changed the way I think about how to live a life.

He made me thought of many much important things, rather than what I did in pass.

He made me smile most of time.

He stands by me no matter what.

I am so grateful and thankful ..

to Allah SWT to have the opportunity to be even better in person,

to pray upon You.

to live for You.

Ya Allah.

I pray for you.

If we are not meant to be, find him a better someone than I am

to love and care for him.

( ^_^ )

Greatest gift for Father's Week

As-salam =)

Alhamdulillah. Aku bersujud syukur. 

Babah, this is for you... Greatest gift for Father's Week! (for now!)

Sorry, if I still can't achieve for excellent grade after all these years, but I am improving and improvising.

Insya-Allah, I will learn from mistakes, and come out with even better grade ..

And keep on making you smile and proud of me.

I remember, once you said,

"Simple, low profile............. high performance"

I still can't do that!

But, whatever it is, WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! =)

Proudly present, 

Greatest Babah ever, ZAINAL ABIDIN B. HJ M. SAID

LIBERIA, '08-'09