Bau bayi bau dari syurga.

As-salam

Dah seminggu aku bergelar makcik. Yoohoo! :) Anak sedara pertama sangat comel! Tapi, masih tak berkesempatan nak gomol-gomol lagi. Alhamdulillah, Zara Adellia Marissa sihat dan sempurna. Baru sahaja keluar dari hospital. Kata emaknya, dah mula melalak kuat dan pandai senyum. Oh, comel! Dapat aku bayangkan walaupun tak pernah tengok secara life. Hanya via facebook sahaja. 

Zara lahir dengan berat sebanyak 3.63kg secara pembedahan. Jujur, menitik air mata bila mula-mula tengok gambar Zara. Bukan sedih, tapi bersyukur sangat Allah S.W.T permudah proses bersalin kakak. Walaupun bukan secara normal, tapi sekurang-kurangnya anak ini lahir juga ke dunia. 

Tahukah anda bahawa bau bayi adalah bau dari syurga? Ya Allah, memang wangi dan menyenangkan, kan? Pernah sekali aku singgah Mall hanya untuk beli softener yang khas untuk baju-baju bayi... kononnya nak bertukar angin dari Downy ke jenama lain, supaya aku boleh bau macam bayi. Kah kah kah! Ngada betul! Tapi itulah misi aku pada hari tu. Macam-macam jenama aku buka penutupnya dan bau.... (Sumber Google)

Pureen

NappiKlean 

KiddieWash

.... tapi tak ada satu jenama pun yang boleh setanding atau hampir-hampir sama dengan bau bayi. MasyaAllah. Sangat wangi bau syurga. Walaupun hanya +-1% bau syurga yang melekat pada bayi yang baru lahir pun sudah cukup menyenangkan, apatah lagi baunya yang sebenar kan? Ya Allah, dengan amalan yang sedikit ni, bolehkah aku jejakkan kaki ke syurga? Amalan ibarat air laut yang ada pasang dan surutnya. 

Wallahu'alam. 

Aku rasa macam insan yang bergelar wanita ini sudah cukup sempurna jika dia telah berkahwin dan ada zuriat. Ada seorang sahabat yang berpendapat bahawa wanita ni tak sempurna kalau tak dikurniakan wajah dan bentuk tubuh yang menarik. Kalau tidak dilahirkan cantik pun, paling kurang wanita-wanita ni cuba berhias supaya cantik. Itu pun sudah hampir sempurna. Memang wanita tak boleh lari dengan dunia kecantikan, tapi aku menyangkal pendapat itu kerana kecantikan bukan segalanya. Apa guna wajah cantik kalau hanya mengundang dosa? Kalau orang lain yang tengok wajah kita tu gunakan ia sebagai sumber untuk beronani, nak buat apa kan? Ya Allah! Minta simpang. Geli sangat bila fikirkan. 

Ya, wanita ni memang jenis suka makan puji dan suka diagung-agungkan, terutama yang melibatkan kecantikan wajah dan tubuh badan. Tapi, apa guna semua itu jika mereka tidak berkahwin dan mempunyai zuriat? Ada yang berkahwin hanya untuk menghalalkan hubungan, tetapi tak mahu untuk mempunyai zuriat. Macam mana tu? AllahuAkhbar. Alangkah ruginya mereka-mereka yang tergolong dalam golongan ini. Kasihan dengan lelaki-lelaki yang mempunyai isteri seperti ini. Bayar duit akad nikah, contohnya RM1,000 dan hantaran mahal-mahal, paling kurang kena ada RM10,000 untuk tanggung majlis sebelah perempaun. Tak termasuk majlis belah lelaki lagi, tetapi tidak boleh ada zuriat. What?? Bukan kerana mandul atau apa, tetapi isteri enggan mengandung kerana takut hilang 'cutting'. Ayyo yo! 

Beberapa hari lepas ada seorang sahabat yang share satu gambar di facebook. Ada seorang perempuan bergelar ibu dalam keadaan yang tidak sempurna (cacat) pada wajah dan tubuhnya. Jika lihat secara luaran, perempuan tu hanya alami kecacatan secara fizikal sahaja. Tak pula disebut pasal kecacatan mental. Walaupun dalam keadaan macam tu, tapi masih lagi dikurniakan zuriat. Alhamdulillah :)

Sumber: Facebook

Mungkin ramai yang akan berkata-kata, "Emaknya sendiri pun nak hidup perlukan bantuan orang lain, macam mana nak jaga anak sendiri?" (olah guna ayat sendiri). Tapi, percayalah bahawa Allah S.W.T itu Maha Mengetahui. Maha Besar. Di setiap kelahiran itu, telah disematkan dengan rezeki-rezeki yang tidak kita ketahui. Percayalah pada ketentuan-Nya. Rezeki tidak didatangkan dalam bentuk RM, atau $ atau Rp, tetapi rezeki didatangkan dengan pelbagai cara. Contohnya, kesihatan yang baik, emosi yang stabil, kusyuk dalm beribadat, makanan yang baik dan halal, keharmonian rumah tangga, anak-anak yang soleh dan solehah, umur yang panjang dan banyak lagi. Terlalu luas definisi bagi rezeki dalam konteks Islam. Wallahu'alam. 

 Aku bukanlah ustazah, ahli usrah atau pun hafizah. Aku cuma tulis berdasarkan senario yang aku nampak kebelakangan ini. Aku faham yang zaman sekarang ini semuanya perlukan RM. Kiranya, no RM, no talk! Nak sara bayi memang makan perbelanjaan yang maha banyak! Itu baru bab bayi, belum masuk kos persekolahan lagi bila dah berumur 5 tahun kan? Nak aku senaraikan? Secara kasar boleh la ya, berdasarkan pengamatan aku. Anggaran kasar ini adalah bagi ibu yang melahirkan anak di hospital swasta.

KOS BERSALIN                         : RM11,000 (Pembedahan)

KOS PERUBATAN BAYI           : RM9,000

BARANG BERPANTANG IBU  : RM500.00 (3 bulan)

BARANG BAYI                           : RM250.00 (Seperti di bawah)

1. Susu RM50.00

2. Lampin RM50.00

3. Baju RM50.00

4. Barang mandi RM50.00

5. Barang makan RM50.00

TOTAL                                          : RM20, 750.00 (Anggaran kasar)

Itu pun belum didarabkan dengan kos maintainance untuk ibu dan bayi secara bulanan. Terkejut kan? Itulah hatikatnya yang sebenar. Sebab itulah 'syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu'. AllahuAkhbar! Aku sendiri pun sudah dinasihatkan untuk mula simpan duit sebaik sahaja mendirikan rumah tangga nanti. Takut-takut kalau susah nak beranak nanti. 

Kalau hal duit ni, fikir 100 000 tahun pun memang tak akan pernah selesai. Lepas satu masalah selesai, masalah lain pula akan timbul. Dugaan! Allah S.W.T sedang menduga kita. Sebab itulah dianjurkan untuk kita menunaikan solat Dhuha bila masa kita lapang. Solat Dhuha adalah solat yang mana dikhususkan untuk kita meminta Allah S.W.T memperbanyak rezeki. Islam agama yang cukup indah, kan? :) Janganlah bersedih jika kita sedang diuji. Sebaliknya, senyumlah, bersyukurlah kerana Allah S.W.T masih sayangkan kita. 

Bergantung haraplah pada Allah S.W.T. Lakukan segalanya LillahiTaala :) InshaAllah, akan dipermudah segala urusan. Percayalah bahawa ada rezeki kita dan rezeki anak. Mungkin akan ada orang yang akan persoal penulisan aku sebab aku masih lagi bujang dan tidak mempunyai anak, menganggap bahawa aku hanya 'pandai cakap' sahaja. Terpulang pada pandangan masing-masing. Tapi, apa yang aku cuba sampaikan pada penulisan kali ini ialah, ikhlas LillahiTaala. 

Ini gambar so comel Zara Adellia Marissa :) Alhamdulillah, si kecil ni dah pandai senyum dan main mata.

Newborn - Few minutes' baby

3 days old.

7 days old

8 days old.

And, of course for a baby, everyday is a birthday. People pay more attention to a baby's development, than us, the matured one. Baby is special :) don't you think?

1000 kali kebaikan dalam satu!

As-salam 

Alhamdulillah, Allah S.W.T permudahkan urusanku menjadi 'ustazah'. Projek ke-2 sedang berlangsung iaitu mengendalikan aktiviti murid-murid Islam pada waktu rehat mereka dengan aktiviti-aktiviti sepanjang bulan Ramadhan ini. Lancar sahaja lidah berbicara. Alhamdulillah, murid pun beri perhatian kepada bebelan aku. Hihi. Harap-harap tak adalah perkara yang tidak diingini. Bukan berharap kepada markah, tapi LillahiTaala. InshaAllah. 

Bulan-bulan puasa ni rugi kalau bercakap perkara yang sia-sia kan? Tiada bulan lain selain bulan Ramadhan yang kita diberikan ganjaran gandaan pahala sehingga 1 000X! Kenapa kalau produk kolagen kalau kandungannya sehingga 1 000 000mg berharga RM150.00 kita beli? Kenapa pahala percuma kita tak amalkan? Pelik! Tapi itulah manusia. Doa, itu senjata orang Mukmin. Berdoalah supaya kita sentiasa Istiqamah dalam beribadat. Allah S.W.T Maha Besar, Maha Melihat, Maha Mendengar. 

Aku sendiri merasa susah nak suaikan diri. Bila tengok satu-satu perkara, ada sahaja yang mahu aku cakapkan. "Baju dia tak matching!", "Pasaipa muka tak flawless?", "Kenapa depa bagi kita kerja banyak sangat?", sumpah macam-macam yang terlintas. Dosa? Ya, tetap berdosa. Mengumpat namanya. Cepat-cepat isytifar! Ya Allah, apa yang dah aku lakukan? Aku telah mensia-siakan hariku Ya Allah. 

Ramadhan bulan yang mulia. Bulan yang mana Allah S.W.T berikan kesempatan kepada kita untuk gandakan amalan-amalan dengan gandaan yang tinggi dan tidak terdapat dalam bulan-bulan yang lain. Masya Allah. Begitu sayang Allah pada kita, kan? Tulisan hari ini memang tak dirancang. Ikhlas dari hati. Entah kenapa tangan ni rajin sahaja menaip hari ini. Tulis blog boleh, kajian tindakan masih lagi di muka surat yang sama. Haiissh. 

Projek hari ini lebih bertemakan kepada bulan Ramadhan. Untuk tahap 1, aku tayangkan video mengenai 'Bismillah'. Aku tekankan kepada murid-murid tentang penggunaan kalimah 'Bismillah'. Alhamdulillah, mereka faham. Siap boleh bagi contoh-contoh lagi di mana nak guna atau terapkan kalimah suci ini. Betul perpatah orang tua, nak melentur buluh, biar daripada rebungnya. Bila kecil-kecil lagi lidah dah biasa dibasahi zikrullah, InshaAllah bila besar nanti tak menjadi masalah untuk dia mengamalkannya. Tahap dua pula lebih bersifat kompleks yang mana aku sajikan dengan tayangan slides mengenai Ramadhan dan puasa. Aku nak mereka faham kenapa mereka berpuasa, rukun dan syarat sah puasa dan lain-lain. Alhamdulillah, walaupun hanya sekadar 'flash back' sahaja, tetapi mereka tetap beri perhatian. Nasib ada sahabat yang banyak membantu dan memahami. Alhamdulillah, Allah permudah urusan kami. 

Bulan Ramadhan ni babah tak jadi balik. Ada lawatan di sana. InshaAllah paling awal pada bulan Syawal nanti. Kami hanya berkesempatan tatap wajah dari jauh sahaja. Babah pun cuma tengok wajah cucu sulung dari Facebook. Di usia 54 tahun, dia sepatutnya berehat dan belajar ilmu Agama, bukannya bekerja dan berjauhan dari keluarga. Baru tadi buka Fb, tengok gambar babah. Ya, babah dah kurus. Susut. Tiada lagi benjolan-benjolan. Alhamdulillah, babah sihat, tapi aku sedih. Betul-betul sedih. Tak faham dengan pandangan orang lain yang terlalu cintakan kerja. Aku faham babah pergi berkhidmat untuk Negara. Jujur, aku faham! Aku bukan budak kecil. Cuma, aku hairan dengan orang-orang yang 'berjiwa rakyat'. Melawat kawasan perang pada 1 Syawal? 1 Syawal? Depa ni tak ada keluarga ke apa? Ternyata agenda 2 in 1. Melawat sambil melancong. Typikal, kan? 

Allah Maha Mengetahui. Mungkin itu yang terbaik untuk kami. Aku redha. Sangat tak sabar menunggu detik bulan November! Awal bulan November, babah dijangka pulang ke Malaysia. InshaAllah :) 

Babah (kanan): ZAINAL ABIDIN B. HJ M. SAID

Kadang-kadang aku rasa bosan dengan hidup aku. Bukan bosan dengan perjalanan hidup, tapi bosan dengan segala kerja remeh-temeh duniawi yang kena diselesaikan. Tapi, bila teringat babah, rasa penat tu hilang. Rasa malu sebab aku hidup dalam keadaan yang lengkap selesa, tapi babah? Tidur pun tak lena sebab fikirkan anak-anak buah, keluarga. Aku solat dan tidur dalam keadaan selesa, tapi babah? Saudara-saudara di Palestine, Mesir? Nak solat pun susah. Apakah kita masih lagi tidak bersyukur?

Memang betul orang cakap, orang kidal ni berfikiran jauh, luas dan mendalam. Ya, aku kidal. Kadang-kadang aku sendiri rasa rimas sebab terlalu banyak terfikir. Tapi, alhamdulillah, sebab aku banyak berfikirlah aku berada di tempat aku sekarang, dengan izin Allah S.W.T. 

Salam Ramadhan :) 

#Coret.

As salam =)

Hari ni hampir dua bulan Babah bermastautin di negara orang. Rindu, sungguh! Kalau ada handphone canggih, boleh la jugak nak berviber, tapi malang sungguh handphone stok yang seminggu pun tak perlu charge. Lepas habis kelas, rehat-rehat, golek atas katil buat santapan minda dan jamuan mata. Terus log-in FB jugak. Belek-belek notifications yang sikit tu, 'Zainalabidin Said added 17 photos of you'. Sahih! Mesti gambar salji yang kami minta Babah upload tu. Tak dapat main salji, tengok salji pun jadilah. HAHA.

Orang Malaysia je giler main salji time sejuk2 ni.

Office cantik.

Put on a happy face.

HAHA. Gambar paling over!

HAHA. Tak sangka Babah pun sibuk nak tangkap gambar melompat jugak! Over-nya! Babah dah umur 55 tahun ni, yet still fit and look young! Alhamdulillah, masih sihat bebas penyakit. Sebab tu pihak atasan calonkan Babah untuk pergi berkhidmat ke Lubnan. Belive me, diorang bukan pergi sana untuk makan angin, main salji, shoping semua. Tapi atas dasar kerja. All about works. Pada hemat aku, askar-askar sangat pandai sembunyikan wajah sengsara, wajah pahit dan wajah payah. Tengok ajelah gambar-gambar atas ni, semuanya tersenyum riang. Tapi, sebenarnya bebanan kerja teramat-amat berat, kerja tak tentu masa. But, Babah never complaints! Respect him! 

Ada satu masa, aku dan kawan-kawan makan pagi di kantin, dan ada yang buka mulut tanya pasal Babah. "Yaya, bila babah pi Lubnan?", "Eh, dengar kata bapak kau pi oversea kan? Bila balik?", "Kalau pi bertugas kat oversea, gaji banyak!". Kadang-kadang orang lupa apa yang ada disebalik gaji dan elaun tu. Yes, aku mengaku yang memang kalau bertugas di kawasan perang and all that, ada peruntukan elaun. Memang ada. Tapi, berbaloi tak dengan beban kerja yang ada dan beban emosi berpisah dari keluarga? Macam mana aspek-aspek tu dinilai? Jawapan aku, not worth a RM! Bila dah pergi, susah nak balik. Kalau boleh balik pun, kejap sangat sebab kena gilir-gilir cuti. 

Tapi, alhamdulillah, setakat ni Babah dibenarkan balik masa bulan Ramadhan dan Syawal. Mungkin sempat berbuka puasa sama-sama lagi tahun ni dan sempat beraya juga. Walaupun kejap, tapi sekurang-kurangnya bolehlah terubat rindu kami pada Babah dan rindu Babah pada masakan mama dan Malaysia. Sibuk cakap bila balik Malaysia nanti nak makan banyak-banyak! Nak makan daging, kambing, sotong, udang, ayam! Makanan yang paling mengeliurkan Babah kat Lubnan ialah, KELI BERLADA! Asyik ulang tu aje bila buat videocall. Haiiissshh! Keli berlada memang hard to resist! Keli goreng bodoh pun asyik duk ngidam jek. HAHA. 

Tahun ni juga, kalau diizinkan Allah S.W.T, kami akan beraya dengan ahli keluarga yang baru. Insha Allah, masa Raya nanti, mungkin anak kakak dah boleh tengok dunia. Laki atau perempuan, belum ada khabar berita. Due bulan Julai. Aku sangat-sangat excited nak tunggu dua berita besar ni! Insha Allah. Doa supaya kami sekeluarga dipanjangkan umur untuk sama-sama rasa moment indah ni. 

Bila dah besar, umur dah masuk 20-an, memang sikit touching bila boleh kumpul dengan semua ahli keluarga, sebab dah jarang boleh berkumpul, jumpa dan makan sama-sama. Betul la tindakan Mama suruh kami semua makan sama-sama setiap kali waktu makan, sebab waktu tu ajelah semua akan berkumpul, tengok muka masing-masing. Bila makan, hati senang, perut kenyang, mood pun happy aje! ^ ^

Entah apa yang aku ngarutkan hari ni. Walaupun penat, tapi aku tetap happy dengan beberapa good news today! Alhamdulillah. HAHA. Perlu ke state di sini? ... masih tak perlu. 

Just, I wish you were here.

As-salam =)

One of the friends, she was like, "Oi, bestnya kau! Cuti jek asyik jalan-jalan! P sana sini! Shoping sakan no?". To me, I rather it be this way,

Family stay at home, spending time together.

I rather not see the world, if my family aren't there. It's not like the old time when I ditched them to be with my friends. I don't have friends anymore. For the time being, I am surely sure sure that my childhood best friend is no longer my great friend. I am not afraid to tell this straight. Yet, I will always treasure all the deeds she did and all the good memories we made. 

I want it to be this way,

FOR YOU TO ALWAYS BE THERE!

NOTHING MORE.

A part of my holiday.

As-salam =)

It's not really a vacation if you don't have everyone you care about, right? A part of my holiday, mine were just another typical holiday. Nothing much, except for the spending time and the relax part. I am actually at KL, visiting the pregnant sister and attending a orthopedic's appointment, which is today. I really missed my braces, like a lot! I missed of being thin and lack of appetite. LOL! Propa sangat kan? But then, braces really do help me control the weight when I was in secondary school. 

The doctor checked the teeth and hand-over a retainer to me, for the lower part of my teeth. It was a bit hard to put it in and really fix it with my teeth. He pushed it real hard that he sort of 'pinch' the lips. Ouch! My retainer has to be on 24/7, so no special free retainer's case for me. I bought my own case later when I was at OU this evening, having lunch at Seoul Garden with the family. Pregnant young mom's treat! I like it ^ ^ It was fun spending the rest of your day at the mall where you rarely go. Happy but a bit tired. I even begged for water. Had to spend MYR 2 for the 600ml Dasani drinking water. It's like they packed a miracle water in there or something? Aiisshhh! I bought nothing much compared to the rest of them. Just a new beg and some few cheap stuffs. Woohoo! Best2!

Oke, let me treat you with the retainer. Sort of like this. Not my retainer. I am wearing this beauty-is-pain right now, while blogging this.

Mine minus the stripes. I got some clear sprinkle all over it. Just plain.

The “Traditional” Hawley retainer is made of rigid acrylic and wire. The acrylic rests on the roof of the mouth or under the tongue while the wire wraps around the teeth to hold them in proper alignment. Hawley retainers are best utilized in cases where teeth have been extracted and the space needs to be held closed, or when teeth are missing and the space must be kept open for future restorative work.

Retainer is used to fix the targeted teeth. In my case, my four bottom teeth are a mess. HAHA. So, since the family decided to go on braces and retainer, I just join the club. Even the mother and preggy young mother wear a retainer. Just a different one ^ ^ I had a difficult time adjusting my talk, how to hold the tongue. A bit uncomfortable. My lips chapped a bit. But, I'll get used to it soon enough.

Oke, below are types of retiner I've been using. Some, I did a simple research for readers extra information.

My previous retainer. 

The invisible retainers are made of a clear plastic material that has been heated and molded over your teeth on the molds taken after the braces have been removed. These can also be used for whitening trays. 

I have this on my upper teeth. A PERMANENT RETAINER. 

The bonded “permanent” retainer can be used on one or both arches. It is most generally bonded to the tongue side of the front teeth. This type of retainer is especially helpful in a case of severely crooked or crowded teeth, or to keep large gaps from opening back up. 

For those who are interested, you can get yours at the nearest and trusted dental care for only MYR 2000. WHAT-A-cost, right? 

My short cut tips: MARRY YOURSELF A SOLDIER TO GET BRACES FOR FREE! ^ ^ *wink*

A part time job.

As-salam =)

A school holiday means, I really have to stay home - not encourgaed to get a job. But, since my youngest sister is now already i school, so mother decided to not let her plays so much. She asked me to do a home tuition for her, so that we won't forget or at least be ready to be in standard two. 

HOME TUTOR

Shasha and I, we decide on the schedule just now. She agrees to study more. I set her leisure time, when she's going to eat, time for bath and time to sleep. Amazingly, she agrees with all the terms and conditions I applied. Yes, easier for me too! I told her that even we are on the vacation, she will have to study that I'll bring her all her books along with us on vacation. Hah! Cruelty much! Yet, for her own good too. 

Kids these days are so brilliant that they have to struggle more and harder than us, if the really want to succeed. Am I right? But, to be honest, I really don;t want to push her too much that I'm scared she might be lost interest in studying later. I believe kids deserve to have fun, or she might not have something fun to talk about later. I believe that intelligent have to stay in line with the personalities, moral values and socialism. Or, she might be facing a big trouble later. Trust me! She would not dare to enter the society since she don't know how to mix around. And, that's important. 

TEACHING SHASHA TO RECITE IQRA' - Tq Mr.Google.

And, not to forget to teach little one Quran and Jawi. Ummah's strength. I noticed that people these days are take 'born Muslim' for granted. Like, if you were born Muslim, then you knew everything about Islam already. So wrong! We all got some unsaid things to ourself, even I did. How I wish I had learnt Quran, Akhlak, Ibadah, Feqah, Sirah, Jawi, etc harder when I was a kid. I take this for grated. How I wish for this to change. How I wish I have children now so that I'll teach them harder about Islam. 

I wish.

Apart of that, I am actually a MS Words's teacher - part time. HAHA. How about that? I am teaching dear mother about how to use MS Words. I find it too expansive for a short and basic MS Words, cost about RM50 for 16 hours lesson, offered by the GSC company. Don't you? Let's be smart about doing business on school holiday, okay? Let's do something that might get our pocket thick. HAHA cruelty much! 

Money money money! I love money! ^ ^

Diary hamil for dear preggy sister.

As-salam

I went to Tesco this evening with mother, Wawa and Shasha to buy some stuffs. Shasha insisted to go to the MPH Book Stores for her Barbie's magazine. I was looking for my usual 'home remedies' book when I suddenly thought of my 5 weeks pregnant sister. I rushed for the 'Diary Hamil' book. This is another one thing I can get pretty high about other than fishes, believe me. I didn't get my sister anything for her wedding, so I think this might do things right. I am superb excited to be a young aunty. 

I did asked mother about her plan after Kakak bersalin nanti? She asked me to survey for product after bersalin. She knows I am good at this thing. Okay, this is quite an honor for someone whom has never get marry to look for such product. But, I accepted the task and looking forward for that. 

A gift for deary sister

Future parents ^ ^

Inhaling the air at one very familiar and heart ease place, called HOME.

As-salam

Finally, the moment I have been waiting for, time for holiday! Wow! I am glad that all things had passed and I can relax a bit, inhale air in a place I know I can be happy, in case you don't know, the place is where I call HOME! And yes, even so I don't know what to do within these almost two months holiday, but at least I know that I am here spending time with family - whom accept you for the real you and know you best. This is what best about home and holiday. Spending time with only person you like and love, nobody else irritating.

JAM BESAR, SUNGAI PETANI

This is just a short entry. Just to ease the heart and update with something cheerful for me. I never thought I say this, but I am glad to be at home, here at Sungai Petani, Kedah. Looking forward for my holiday :) Will update soon, okay? I rarely update status to my facebook, I love blogging more.

How excited aunt Yaya is!

As-salam

Finally, one happy post is coming out from me! Haha. After all the sorrow-dorrow story, I finally have the chance to announce something wonderful about my life. And yes, I am going to be an aunt in few months. To be exact, in July, InsyaAllah. It's about time I see something different about my family. Haha.

It's so exciting to have a new member of the family, Zainal's family. I am hoping for a baby boy. But, it's okay if it turns out to be a girl. Girl's power, still.

Apa erti sahabat?

As-salam

Aku tak tahu sama ada aku makin poyo, sibuk nak kejar dunia dewasa sampai tegar tinggalkan kegilaan dunia remaja secara total, atau dia sendiri yang dah berubah. Aku sibuk canangkan pada dunia tentang dia, dan aku tahu dia pun canangkan perkara yang sama. Cuma, berapa rapat aku kenal dia? Dan sejauh mana pula dia kenal aku? Itu yang menjadi persoalan sekarang.

Boleh dikatakan aku tak tahu menahu langsung apa yang terjadi dengan hidup dia. Memang kadang-kadang aku atau dia akan mesej tanya khabar, tengah buat apa, bila balik, tapi semua tu hanya berhenti setakat itu sahaja. Sedih, kan? Kawan baik cuma hanya di mulut sahaja.

Bila dapar khabar tentang dia, aku betul-betul terkejut. "Apa dah jadi?", aku tanya. Dia cuma balas, "Nanti aku dah balik aku mesej kau, okay? Aku tengah bersosial ni". Aku terkejut juga dengan jawapan tu, cuma aku gagahkan hati, sedapkan hati sendiri. Jam dah pukul 12.00 kot? Masih di luar?

Aku memang kenal dia sebegitu, cumanya aku ingat zaman foya-foya kami dah lama tamat. Tapi, rasanya tidak! Entah! Aku jadi tak tahu nak cakap macam mana. Betul la cakap orang, "Makin kita kenal seseorang tu, makin kita nak menjauhi dia".

Terbukti benar.

Tapi, aku tak akan sekali-kali tinggalkan dia. Aku cuma sedih dan sedikit kecewa. Itu sahaja. 

Superb great Ahjupoo.

As-salam =)

It has been a while, more than a week since the home cat killed by one 'hit and run' driver. We managed to do well in life, when I suddenly saw this one stray hostel cat at the fire drill near the toilet. He was one black-brownish cat. So thin that I could feel the back bone. I took him in with me, sleep inside my room. He was good and well-trained that I believed was lost more than few months. So, I decided to call mother to ask to bring this cute cat home. I send the MMS. She was quite okay with it actually since it is a Persian Cat. And, I think she's a bit excited about it too. 

When I found him...

He starts to feel good and getting annoying

One habit of him, sleeps on something.

On my way to send him home

My sister, she asked me to not upload or snap picture of the cat. She kind of 'almost believe' this one sort of superstitious believe that, "If you take picture of animals (on this case, cat), it will soon die". Well, she not really believes it, like hardly believe. It's just, she's too afraid of loosing another family members.

Am deciding to heading back home this weekend. So, hello hello Ahjupoo! 

I knew how it feels - Sayonara

As-salam

One fine evening turns to a tragedy when this silver/grey Harrier knocked down my home cat, Gege. The car don't even hesitate to slow down or stop. Surely, he/she knows about the knocking thing since the Chinese neighbors also aware about it, even they are at the end of the corner (few houses away from mine).

FUCK YOU, Harrier!!!!!!

I am still shocked about what had happened. The cat ran out of the house to play at the porch, when the younger sister ran towards her. She is one playful cat that she responses by running towards the open road, and then, bbbbaaannngggg!!!!! She's all gone! Once again, the fucking Harrier don't even hesitate to stop!!!

I was all panicking when I saw the cat had been knocked down. No injuries! We thought that she's been hit on the legs, but the legs seem fine. I kindly look at the cat, and said, "She could not make it!", yet still ran inside to get my hijab to take her to the pet clinic. Too late, she's already gone!

Actually, I am quite relieve that she's gone. If not, she could have suffered broken ribs - maybe she could not even stand up. Its the fucking Harrier I am so pissed about!

Its all happened so fast that I could not take it all in one shot. I needed times. I am the one who took care of this pity cat when she was sick. I cleaned the ears, doing the bath, feed her medicines, all that. Pity to see her died right in front of me :(

Now I know how the sister felt when she lost her cat (also my cat. Its just, she cares about the cat a lot, like I did to this dead cat!). Its hard to believe.

LY, MY!

Bury her beside the old cat named, Berok

Marked by one broken roof piece

Where she rest in peace

This is a continued writing (7/2/2012). I still can't get her off the mind. Now, whenever I look at cats, I start to think of her. Don't know I could miss her this much; although she's one annoying cat - yet cute! :( Mom keep on reminding me to not bring my hostel's cat home. And I said, "Don't worry lar! I am done with this cat thing for a while". 

Thanks NurulBadiah Lai ^ ^

As-salam =)

It was just another day for me. Sitting at home, doing home-chores as always and eat. I logged in into my blog and scroll down my dashboard and saw this one entry about 'How to be strong?'. She claims that one of her readers had told her one sad story about her life journey - about how tough it was that sometimes she thought of giving up. I scanning the entry and only look for important part (I always like that! ^ ^). But, then I realized something. 

"I am living one good life here and sometimes I don't realize that!"

A friend of mine, she told me about how lucky I am to get the chance to spend time with my mother, go shopping, family holidays, go around Malaysia, having a family reunion, etc. Yet, her mother do not even go to shopping mall since not feeling so well. I smell the enviousness somehow. Deep down, I am empathy for her situation, really. 

But,

She have something I don't.

"She have one strong relationship with the grandparents (both sides) that she could lay down on her grandma, race with her, gossiping... something that I don't usually do with mine".

Merciful Allah S.W.T. Allah know best about us. He had planned for a better one. What count is life upon death. Maybe my life is not best after all. Failure, sickness, poorness are some the signs of Allah, about how He remains us to always remember Him, to show His love. And as one of the ways for us to be forgiven on sins we made. 

So, what made me so special, then? We are all the same. Happy life, sad life, life full of struggle... are life worth living for. Because what counts is life beyond - AKHIRAT. 

Most important thing is, "TO LIVE FOR ALLAH S.W.T"

For now on, set our mind to live for Allah S.W.T. InsyaAllah. It is not easy to do so. But, pray hard for Allah. Nothing is impossible by the help of Allah S.W.T. 

I had some plans that had been on my mind for quite sometimes. It was my plan in three of four years times. May Allah have His Mercy on me.  

Not yet married.

As-salam =)

I am not yet married. But sort of engaged. In Islam, the moment the man express his thought to have her as his wife, the woman is considered to be engaged, even with no witness and writing. I have a story to share with you guys. We went to dinner just now. I really do not know how to dress tonight. I pull one of my unfolded long sleeve shirt out of my basket. I thought this baby blue would be nice, just the shirt is short. So, I thought of wearing it along with my skirt-attached pants to cover up my bottom. Okay, decided then. At the restaurant, hubby asks about what am I wearing? I knew it would come out. So, I explain myself of why I have the shirt worn with the pants to cover up my bottom and so on. Then he said, "Sayang, ini bukan seluar. Tapi legging." To cut short the conversation, I translated of the whole thing he said to the man version of talking (just so you know, man always talking indirectly :p) 

Legging is not pants and it looks sexy on me (Okay, since I gained weight. The tight are really showing. The curve is much obvious now!). But what he really means was, I am not suppose to wear that there, at least not to be matched with a short shirt. 

I get his point. InsyaAllah =) I am praying for that, to be more alert or aware about the way I dress and how I handle myself. I am assisting myself now to be a good wife later. Despite of most of thing I did, I try to look it on how a wife should do, should really behave herself.

InsyaAllah.

Everybody keeps writing about New Year

As-salam =)

It is officially 2012 now. And, seems like bloggers take this for granted to write about typical 'New Year resolutions', 'new hope', 'aims' and 'ambitions', like yawn! Are you really going to strive for that? Only about 20% people strove hard for it. Another 80% left without saying (not even realizing it at all - including me). Haha. What about that? I must say, the 80% are just being normal, for being easy to live a life; live life with no pressure. 

I didn't really thought about resolutions. I have none to be specific. I just hope for the best, always. I pray to My God, Allah S.W.T for one better life, give me times to serve the parents, the family and all the people around me; to enlighten their days, provide them hopes and hands to hold on to. Insya-Allah. It's part of the job as a teacher.    

2012 - Also will be a big year to my elder sister, FARHAH MARHAINI as she soon to be a wife to a man she knew for years, IMRAN IBRAHIM. Although the weeding is not yet to come, but bride is as busy as ever. Haha. 

2012 - Is also one of my big year as I soon will start my practicum here at schools. I really nervous about facing these youngsters and really don't have the idea on how to communicate with the teachers. You see, I have these inferior complex deep inside myself. I am too afraid to not give people on what they need. I am too afraid to make mistakes now, even did I knew that ones learn from mistakes they made. 

YayaQiestina as a teacher :p

Other than that big days, it is not totally decided. Allah S.W.T plan is not yet to come. So, praying for the best in life. 

Insya-Allah =)

Custom made burger :p

As-salam =)

It was one happy week where the family can actually spend time together. We were talking about passed childhood and about games we played when Kakak suddenly remains me of the game of 'burger' we used to do. Haha it was one exciting and so-much-fun game!

Imagine, a burger like this,

Can actually be made by humans trapped inside :p Sort of like this, 

Just, our burger is more like a size of Burger King, with three layer of burger; kakak at bottom, Sarah on top, while I trapped in between. Wawa, she rarely joins since she's too small to play. Was about three years at the time. We made our burger but putting a cushion onto one another until all are being squished by it. It is one precious moment to me. I sort of forget those things lately, since I was in high school. We all did. It is fun if we had the chance to do it one more time.

Disember events

As-salam =)

2012 is just around the corner. My Disember was filled with a lot of unforgettable experiences and memories, even so I am not doing nothing much. But some of it are just so special that actually strengthens the bonds of each family members. 

Here are pictures :p

Reunion at Bentong

Visit Cikgu Ramlah at Bentong

A colleague's wedding at Sg. Besi 

Slumer party .. just u and me :p

She really hate the choc mask

I made this myself

Typical weding on school holidays :p

She can't wait for school to open

Her 'Sasha' for school

On our way to Johor - stop for dinner

My kampong - Kg. Parit Lahak, Tongkang Pechah, Batu Pahat

Family wedding

Meeting families (On left, Babah's aunty)