What so limited edition?

As-salam =)

There is a mini-giveaway contest I've been thinking about lately. I've to write and create an entry about 'I AM LIMITED EDITION'! But, the thing is, I really don't know I am limited edition. I don't know where are my strengths, but spotted so many weaknesses about myself. I mean, these passed two weeks of practicum had been not so pleasant. Students did not fear me. I lost control on some of the classes, even the first class. You see, I am too worried about students not getting involve in every activities I made, so I keep on repeating orders; two, three times and sometimes more. Due to my action, the class keeps dragging and I did 'step in' other teacher's period. It was on my first week of practicum.  Chaos!

As for today, the lecturer came to observe. My fiance and I, we've been told about this and we did the best that we can. My observation starts first at 7.40 a.m until 8.40 a.m. Over all, she's happy with the way I control the class. Alhamdulillah. 

But, I'd noticed that one of teachers there marked as ROF, he did went to see my lecturer to complaint about me. He squads down beside the table and tells tale about my dragging thing. End of lesson, my lecturer, fiance and I had a talk about improving the teaching skills, our strength and weaknesses. She did mention about ROF complaints about my behaviour. And I explained to her about what really happened and she's  okay with that. She even backs me up about it. She did mention about ROF being so unprofessional about this. Because, instead of confronting me, he ends up telling the fiance about it. He had his chance to talk me out about this but he never did. 

I don't mind people complaint about me. It's good to helps me build up my teaching skills and the control towards my lesson. BUT, 

1. He's not coming directly to see me to talk about it.
2. Yet, he ends up to see my lecturer  without even consult it with me.
3. He's not a good teacher to begin with. 

I've seen him teaching. He teaches with his feet up on the table, resting to the chair.

So, by seeing his way of teaching, then I must say, he's not the right person to judge me and file a complaint about me! Okay? I am pretty angry now. I planned to walk my students towards their class and meet him. Tekad!

Aku tak peduli kalau dia nak complain aku ni guru pelatih yang ego or what. Hell with it! 'cause he's not the right person to do so! With his sloppy looking, kemeja berlengan pendek, seluar slack yang dilipat bawah dan jambang  yang tak terurus, dia memang tak layak nak tegur aku. Komplain cukup kencang tapi diri sendiri tak tengok pulak!

Fullstop. Jarang aku marah tapi this time memang so HOT! Bukan dia yang nak menilai pengurusan kelas aku, so why should I scared of him? He has no reason to be respect!

Double the laughter.

As-salam 

In my previous entry, I wrote about one typical thing about friends. Now that the entry had became one big reality, we just have to work this out. Do as planned. And, that's it. But, simple thing may something be more burdensome than one more complicated. The thing is, now that you know how they were - fake act and fake smile, do nothing about it. Smile. Their laugh can only be heard now, not then. While, we can laugh now and laugh even harder when they finally realize how stupid they were. 

Double the laughter.

Friends, judge them by counting who sit near you when things are falling apart, and who sit the longest. Most people have amount of friends only when they reach the top, not when they met the bottom. So, now that you know the truth, stick it to your mind, to never trust anybody except you.

Honest opinion, been there.

I knew how it feels - Sayonara

As-salam

One fine evening turns to a tragedy when this silver/grey Harrier knocked down my home cat, Gege. The car don't even hesitate to slow down or stop. Surely, he/she knows about the knocking thing since the Chinese neighbors also aware about it, even they are at the end of the corner (few houses away from mine).

FUCK YOU, Harrier!!!!!!

I am still shocked about what had happened. The cat ran out of the house to play at the porch, when the younger sister ran towards her. She is one playful cat that she responses by running towards the open road, and then, bbbbaaannngggg!!!!! She's all gone! Once again, the fucking Harrier don't even hesitate to stop!!!

I was all panicking when I saw the cat had been knocked down. No injuries! We thought that she's been hit on the legs, but the legs seem fine. I kindly look at the cat, and said, "She could not make it!", yet still ran inside to get my hijab to take her to the pet clinic. Too late, she's already gone!

Actually, I am quite relieve that she's gone. If not, she could have suffered broken ribs - maybe she could not even stand up. Its the fucking Harrier I am so pissed about!

Its all happened so fast that I could not take it all in one shot. I needed times. I am the one who took care of this pity cat when she was sick. I cleaned the ears, doing the bath, feed her medicines, all that. Pity to see her died right in front of me :(

Now I know how the sister felt when she lost her cat (also my cat. Its just, she cares about the cat a lot, like I did to this dead cat!). Its hard to believe.

LY, MY!

Bury her beside the old cat named, Berok

Marked by one broken roof piece

Where she rest in peace

This is a continued writing (7/2/2012). I still can't get her off the mind. Now, whenever I look at cats, I start to think of her. Don't know I could miss her this much; although she's one annoying cat - yet cute! :( Mom keep on reminding me to not bring my hostel's cat home. And I said, "Don't worry lar! I am done with this cat thing for a while". 

PART1: Aku pun hodoh juga!

As-salam =)

Dah lama sangat rasanya aku tak post dalam Bahasa Malaysia, kan? Tiba-tiba rasa rindu! Post dalam BM ni lebih senang nak express feeling. Oh, sudah! Dah jadi ‘bahasa rojak’ daa... Haha inilah akibatnya kalau lidah terlatih dengan satu perkara saja. Jadi sikit kekok! Tulis dalam BM pun ayat susah nak keluar ‘bahasa pasar’. Asyik-asyik ‘bahasa baku’. Hmm..

24.10.2011 – 12.45 tengahari :

Aku masih di sekolah, berehat-rehat di Bilik Sakit yang mama dan aku hias. Pedih rasanya muka ni dek bahang sang matahari. Sg. Petani dah makin panas sekarang. Pukul 10.00 pagi pun teriknya hingga menangkap ke kepala. Pening! Asyik-asyik expose to sunlight! Kalau hari-hari macam ni, bila baru boleh aku cerah balik?

Mama baru aje kol aku, minta aku ke naik ke kelas 3 Maju. Sesi bergambar la! What else? Mama minta aku tangkap gambar ruang-ruang kelasnya. Mama sangat eager, seolah-olah macam satu arahan pula! Haha. ‘kau tak buat, kau mati!’. Takutnya! So, aku pun dengan malasnya melangkah ke blok sebelah dan naik ke tingkat satu. Tangkap gambar sikit (ambil syarat jek!) then turun balik ke Bilik Sakit.

Mata aku tertancap ke satu sudut. 

PONDOK REHAT

Aku teringat lagi satu kejadian yang berlaku sembilan tahun lepas di pondok rehat tu. Aku, Jannah, Bariah dan Nadhirah memang empat sekawan. Anak pegawai, so seolah-olah kami ni already build up a team. Lebih serasi. Plus, hidup pun  berjiran. Sembilan tahun lepas, aku berumur 12 tahun. Aku sangat hodoh – berbadan besar, mata sepet, berkulit gelap, gigi tak tersusun, bau badan, kurang cerdik, tak aktif, kurang berkemahiran, dll. Dalam selection untuk persembahan Hari Anugerah Cemerlang, nama aku langsung tak tersenarai. Sedih! Sedangkan kawan-kawan aku yang lain semuanya dipanggil untuk persembahan tersebut. Tinggallah aku sorang-sorang terkontang-kanting.

Aku kecil hati! Aku sangat terasa!

Bukan salah kawan-kawan, tapi salah cikgu yang menilai! Bila dah dewasa dan bakal menjadi seorang guru, aku lebih faham kenapa cikgu tak pilih aku. Cuma, kata-kata yang cikgu tersebut lontarkan pada aku ketika tu membuatkan aku lebih mengasingkan diri. Aku tak yakin! Aku malu dengan diri sendiri! Di pondok itulah aku menangis semahu-mahunya. Aku tak peduli budak-budak lain yang lalu-lalang. Persetankan!

Bila di IPG, satu kejadian yang hampir serupa berlaku pada aku. Aku terus teringat kejadian masa di sekolah dulu. Kejadian ni lah! Aku seolah-olah hilang keyakinan diri. Aku kembali rasa hodoh! ... and major looser! Bukan mudah untuk aku bangkit semula dari kejatuhan. Tak mudah! Masa yang aku ambil sangat panjang dan kadang-kadang aku terbawa-bawa perasaan tu. Aku tak professional!

Di usia yang hampir mencecah 22 tahun, perlahan-lahan aku bina keyakinan aku terhadap diri sendiri. Aku mula sayangkan diri dengan beri lebih peluang untuk aku perbaiki kesalahan. Aku belajar untuk kurangkan sikap ‘perfectionist’. ‘Perfectionist’ sebenarnya hanyalah alasan yang aku reka bagi menutup kelemahan aku mengawal emosi, terutama apabila masyarakat di sekitar bercerita tentang kekurangan diri aku. Aku selalu ingat yang aku mampu memuaskan hati pelbagai pihak dalam satu masa, tapi tak! Aku salah! Aku bukannya Malaikat. Sedangkan Nabi-nabi terdahulu pun berbuat dosa kepada Allah S.W.T, inikan pula hamba biasa di akhir zaman. 

Mentally Unhealthy!

As-salam =)

It has been a month since I left home. Living only half an hour from my hometown is not a ticket to go back every week. The pressure of studying is keep on pressing me down these hectic days (been weeks already!) and I am about to give up. 

Please, motivate me! I am totally tired, mentally! I can't take any additional pressure. Sleep is not the best medicine to cure the sickness, in fact, I need to go out, nowhere specific, just O-U-T! Even a kilometer is a total fine. 

My friends and I, we survived on a killer-MIKRO MAKRO- teaching, three days straight for three boring hours ON THE EVENING. I repeat, ON THE EVENING! Oh, don't ask! Even I don't know how'd I survived! And, I have to mentally prepared for another at least three hours of suicide-NIGHT CLASS today, after one hour of stressing lecture. Oh! 

I can't barely think now!

The girls, we talked about controlling of what we ate and might eat in order to stay healthy and in shape, BUT we really miss one important thing, which is MENTALLY HEALTHY! How to be healthy if mentally we are not healthy? I really believe, even a Psychologist can't stand this kind of pressure! haha. 

So, unhealthy la right now! 

Sedangkan orang alim diberi RM1,000,000 pun habis

As-salam

Seolah-olah seperti terjaga dari tidur yang lena. A huge wake up call for me! .. sedangkan orang alim diberi RM1,000,00.00 pun habis, apatah lagi hamba biasa yang ada turun naik amal ibadatnya. 

Pandangan orang terhadap kita ni memang sukar nak diduga. Biar pun kita sentiasa ikhlas dan tak berkira, tetapi dah jadi lumrah hidup, akan ada yang nampak tak kena dengan perbuatan dan tindakan kita. 

Aku dah berdosa kerana berkecil hati dengan apa yang berlaku. Sungguh, aku tak berapa mampu membendung perasaan tu! Mungkin akan ambil masa seketika hingga benar-benar sembuh. :'(

Luaran dan dalaman tak semestinya bergerak seiring, kan? Entahlah, aku sendiri tak tahu apa yang aku fikirkan. Penyelesaian yang macam mana yang aku nak aku sendiri tak tahu!

Mulut orang, aku tak boleh hentikan dari berkata-kata. 

Hati orang, aku tak boleh halang dari bersangka buruk.

Telinga orang, aku tak boleh sekat dari mendengar.

Mulut, hati dan telinga, boleh dikalahkan sekiranya ada akal yang tajam. Fikirkan sedalam-dalamnya, pertimbangkan kesahihannya! 

Aku rasa sangat-sangat terbeban selagi masalah ni tak selesai. 

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan ku! Hindari aku dari fitnah dunia yang Maha Besar. Jauhi aku dari hasad dengki manusia durjana! Terangi hati mereka dengan cahaya petunjuk Mu. Bantulah aku. Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Besar, lagi Maha Mengetahui.

A big mission

As-salam =)

I've been talking to a friend about an issue. She suggests for me to have a face-to-face talk. I've been thinking, and had decided to do as suggested. 

Monday, let's the mission begin.

I should really do this sooner, yet I've been pending it for no reason. It's so not right! I have to stand up tall, clearing my name and reputation. 

Hell, I am so pissed off with some people whom sort of set an agenda to make me sit and blame me for everything. Sinned, dude! 

Kindly remember that, this is 'dunia akhir zaman'. Allah S.W.T pay cash for most of sins and blames we made, we accused, we talked bad about others. I am totally not surprise if one day you come down to my knees, beg for my forgiveness. If that happen, then I'll say,

"What is it you did wrong? Aren't you always right?"

Now I know what kind of friend you are. I'll always know! 

Sorry, but I am totally heart-ache by the agenda you've planned. 

Oh, my Somalian people

As-salam 

Soalah yang diajukan oleh seorang warga Somalia kepada mufti dari negara Arab.

"Sahkan puasa saya sekiranya saya tidak bersahur dan berbuka?"

Apa peranan kita sebagai saudara sesama Islam? Kita bersenang-lenang di sini, bermewah dengan makanan yang menggunung dan berzat sedangkan ada saudara kita yang kebuluran dan dihidrasi.

Apakah selama ini bantuan wang yang kita salurkan di tabung pusat-pusat beli belah tidak sampai ke tangan mereka? Di mana wang itu sekarang?

Kalau betul wang itu tidak digunakan untuk membantu warga Somalia, tetapi digunakan untuk tujuan-tujuan lain yang baik dan diberkati, maka aku HALAL kan penggunaan tersebut. TETAPI, jika sebaliknya berlaku, aku HARAM kan penggunaannya!

Manusia semakin jahil! Tegar melihat saudara sendiri kebuluran. Sahih, kita kembali hidup di zaman Jahilillah.

Ya Allah, lindungi aku, keluargaku dan sekalian Muslimin dan Muslimat dari sifat-sifat tamak dan tidak bersyukur atas kurniaan-Mu.

Kenapa dengan kau?

As-salam =)

Aku ada satu kemusykilan!

Kenapa dengan kau?

Menjaja cerita orang sana sini..

Mengaibkan orang!

Suka??

Apa yang kau dapat selain menunjukkan kelemahan dan keBODOHan diri sendiri?

Kenapa dengan kau?

Menjaja cerita orang tanpa pikir panjang!

Ada tak kau pikir yang cerita kau tu sebenarnya fitnah semata?

Gara-gara ringan mulut menjaja cerita orang

Cerita aib sendiri tak terbendung!

Malu lah sikit!

Kenapa dengan kau?

Sibuk ambil tahu hal orang lain

Lepas tu sebarkan!

Apa yang kau pikir ek?

Kutip kawan2 dengan cara bekalkan depa dengan cerita baru yang kononnya SO PANAZ!

Ceit!

Sangat murahan!

Malu lah sikit!

Kenapa dengan kau?

Tak ke kau sedar yang kau sebenarnya tengah mencorak kan hidup kau sendiri?

Apa yang kau buat, apa yang kau sebarkan 

sebenarnya lastly AKAN MAKAN DIRI SENDIRI!

Akan berbalik kepada kau!

Akan berlaku kepada kau jugak suatu hari nanti!

So bodoh!

Sorry la eh?

For quite a sometime, aku rasa totally annoyed dengan sikap bodo kau tu!

I lost respect over you towards the matter!

How could you not know how I am?

SO BODOH!

Sayonara family!

As-salam 

17 SEPT 2011

One of the family member had passed away due to a common disease,

known as 'hawa kucing'.

Oh, the family member is really a cat!

Miss you terribly! :'(

Tiny you!

He just loved the hello kitty-mermaidia

His best posture!

Gonna miss those!

No one like you!

Bertuahkah kita?

Fikiran aku sekali lagi melayang memikirkan Aiman dan Irfan. Macam mana kehidupan mereka? Macam mana persediaan Raya mereka? Folder gambar aku buka. Tatap gambar gelagat kanak-kanak istimewa di SK Sg. Petani. Sangat comel, terutama bila mereka menari dan mengajuk aksi ayam ketika lagu ‘Chicken Dance’ dimainkan guru! Bahagianya mereka. Manusia biasa dan normal macam kita jarang sekali boleh merasa bahagia macam tu. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir, bertuahkah kita dilahirkan normal? Atau mereka yang bertuah? ..kerana syurga Al-Jannah ganjaran untuk mereka. Kita? Syurga atau neraka bergantung kepada amalan-amalan kita ketika di dunia persinggahan ini.

PERMATA HATI

Allah S.W.T telah menentukan segalanya. Manusia saling melengkapi. Manusia yang dilahirkan sihat fizikal dan mental memerlukan mereka-mereka yang istimewa untuk hidup, untuk dibantu, untuk berbakti, menambah amalan-amalan kebaikan untuk di bawa ke alam yang kekal, Akhirat. Begitu juga sebaliknya. Mereka yang istimewa memerlukan mereka yang normal, sihat dari segala segi sebagai pengajaran dan peringatan kepada mereka, sebagai pembantu menguruskan hal-hal harian; membantu menguruskan diri, solat dan sebagainya.

Adilnya-Mu, Ya Allah.

Terima kasih kerana telah mempertemukan kami. Aku bersyukur kepada Mu. Panjangkan jodoh kami, Ya Allah. Bantulah aku untuk membantu mereka. Tetapkan niwaitu ku, Ya Allah. Jauhi aku dari sifat riak dan tidak bersyukur atas kurniaan Mu.

Amin. 

Again, I smile!

As-salam =)

"I don't need a thousand friends near me, not a hundred around me, not even ten near me, but just one real friend who will stand by me. So, SMILE when you only see friends hang out. You know any better".

"You only hurt and cry now, not later!"

Stick that in mind, okay?

Focus on what you are doing. 

Shut it up when a friend come to you and talk bad about others. 

Talk to yourself, "Is it what you call as friendship?"

They value their so call friendship in their own term. So, there's no right and no wrong in judging what is friendship. Depends on what kind of friend you are looking for.

Just SMILE, okay? 

I already have a real friend who will stand by me. =) Appreciate it! 

So, why bother?

I hardly miss him!

As-salam =)

Salam Ramadan! It was rather a blessing day. I was out buying some foods for the break fast with my loyal best friend, myChenta at Bazar Penanti, Penang. We were chit-chatting about the RM500.00 cost of hard cover for the next coming final journal when I suddenly remembered about my lovable late grandfather, ALLAHYARHAM HJ MOHD SHARIF @ SAREH. 

He used to write his own journal about the family. Believe it or not, it was at about or more than 5 inches thick, each! Oh, and he had about six of them. He would rode on his old black bike (called as 'basikal tua'!) to the Alor Setar town to have it compiled together. I remembered howstubborn he was when he refused to take cab or have a ride with us to go to hospital for his following medical check-ups! He just loved his old bike that he would clean it up everytime he rode it.

I told Fendi about how wonderful my late grandfather was.

"About months before he passed away, we somehow became closer. He seemed enjoyed playing Monopoly with us. And he even lead the game."

"We feel so comfortable when we were around him. I, myself enjoyed having my lunch and dinner with him at separated table - much smaller and simpler design kind of table. Just a plain and simple one, compared to another dine table at the house."

Ya Allah, have him safe by your side.

My tears spilled. I really missed you! :'(

I love the way he behaved.

As-salam =)

I JUST LOVE THE WAY HE BEHAVED!

They played together and she loved him.

They played together and she enjoyed it.

I was grateful to know and have him in my life.

He changed me.

He changed the way I think about how to live a life.

He made me thought of many much important things, rather than what I did in pass.

He made me smile most of time.

He stands by me no matter what.

I am so grateful and thankful ..

to Allah SWT to have the opportunity to be even better in person,

to pray upon You.

to live for You.

Ya Allah.

I pray for you.

If we are not meant to be, find him a better someone than I am

to love and care for him.

( ^_^ )

Puteri Trauma

As-salam =)

Ini PUTERI TRAUMA!

Puteri Trauma ialah nama panjang yang aku reka untuk seekor kucing betina ni. Kucing ni ada iras-iras 'buyong', kucing lama kesayangan aku yang jasadnya hingga sekarang tak ketemu (larikan diri dari sangkar masa nak pindah dari Kuantan ke Sg. Petani). Memang sangat iras! 90% serupa dari segi fizikal, tetapi dari segi attitude, 20% je kot? .. coz Puteri Trauma ni mulutnya tak becok macam 'buyong'!

Kenapa nama Puteri Trauma?

Haha.. part ni yang paling best! .. tapi, minta maaf! Memang tak boleh nak explain kat sini kerana tidak mahu menyinggung mana-mana pihak. Kalau nak tahu, kenalah tanya sendiri or inbox (xdenya nak inbox aku! ceit!). 

Al-kisahnya, Puteri Trauma ni aku berniat nak bawa balik dan bela di rumah, bagi kawan dengan si Berok (nama manja kucing aku, okay?), tapi lain pulak ceritanya! Agak sedih juga sebab tak dapat nak tunaikan janji pada si kucing. Alasannya, 

"Kucing biasa la! Tak comel! Tak gebu!"

 No comment! (kalau nak comment, boleh aje.. cuma banyak sangat yang aku nak comment sampaikan tak tahu nak sebut yang mana satu!)

Aku agak sedih juga dengan jawapan tu sebab aku berpendapat itu bukan alasannya. Ok, kalau tak gebu, kurang sihat, kotor, kurus ... itu semua bukannya tak boleh diubah! Dan kalau tak comel sekali pun, boleh je diubah! Kan? Pandangan kita tentang 'comel' tu sebenarnya perlu anjakan dan perubahan. Senang dan mudah kan? Pelihara kucing jalanan lagi mulia dari beli dan bela kucing di Pet Shop! .. or bela kucing jalanan yang makin tak sedar diri, lupa asal-usul.

Sedih sangat!

Tapi, diorang get along quite well aje! Kan?

Once, Berok jilatkan bulu PUTERI TRAUMA.

Berok & Puteri Trauma bergaduh juga! Diorang kononnya macam nak bergurau, tapi lastly turned out almost macam bergaduh. The owner risau kalau-kalau masa bergaduh tu tercekau, tertusuk, ter- ter- ter- (macam2 ter-). Masalahnya, peluang untuk depa mulakan proses 'berkawan' tak bagi dengan cukup! Itulah masalah utama! dan masalah, takut sangat si kucing tu BALIGH awal! Dah nalurinya macam tu, dijadikan berpasangan, baligh dan membiak, nak buat macam mana? 

Aku kurang berminat nak buat serang balas sebab takut aku tak dapat nak kawal mimik muka dan perkataan-perkataan yang akan gelunggur keluar dari mulut aku, but unfortunately, I did said something! (setelah seketika memendam perasaan!)

"Jangan mempercepatkan Kiamat!"

Aku tahu mulut aku sangat lazer! Sebab tu aku malas nak bersuara. Tapi, minta maaf! Aku memang tak berapa boleh terus pendamkan perasaan.

"Bukan salah kucing kalau dia bertindak lupa asal-usul. Sikit pun tak! Salah manusia yang makin 'me-manusia-kan' binatang".

Comel, kan? .. terutamanya tang mata tu! Alala.. ini kucing kantin IPGKTB!

p/s: Harapan aku, Insya-Allah, kalau umur aku panjang dan ditakdirkan aku berkahwin dan menetap di kampung dan tanah keluarga suami, or di mana-mana je, aku berhasrat untuk bina dan dirikan sangkar kucing besar dan pelihara, bantu dan ubati sebanyak mungkin kucing selagi jantung masih berdegup.

Pirates of Carribean - On stranger tides

As-salam =)

I suppose to be at home yesterday, but last minute change of decision lead me to Sunway Carnival, Penang. Fendi and I, we went for a movie, new release entittle, PIRATES OF CARRIBEAN - ON STRANGER TIDES. Well, as always... **HOORAY** for POC!=) I don't really follow POC (it was my first) and I am not a 'movie-manic', just a unplanned date.

It was a good and an interesting to be watched. Seriously, POC's fans, MUST WATCH this! I totally fall in love with it. =)

p/s: I am not planning to write a long entry or something, just too much boredom! I suppose to be at home by now, avoiding the discomforts and heart-ache. Heart, be happy, please!

Stop all the madness! I admit it my fault.

As-salam =)

Makin hari, makin lupa pula tujuan asal join blogging nih.. Bukan untuk tambah stress atau meringankan mulut, tapi untuk kongsi pengetahuan-pengetahuan am yang aku search or appear. So, nampak sangat lari dari niat asal kan? 

Punca kepada masalah ini ialah:

1. Jati diri tak kukuh (biasalah, dah nama pun orang Melayu!)
2. Jati diri kurang kukuh (orang melayu suka berpura-pura pandai, biasalah!)
3. Jati diri yang sangat kurang kukuh (no komen!)
4. Tak ada pendirian yang tetap
5. Tak ukur baju di badan sendiri
6. Berharap jadi orang lain (ye keh??)

Macam banyak je masalah ni? Ok lah, mula muhasabah diri sendiri. Kenapa keadaan semakin meruncing? Ok, dah faham! Salah diri sendiri yang makin lama makin lantang bersuara dan suka jaga tepi kain orang.

It's ok .. terima kasih kerana menyedarkan aku sebelum aku makin hanyut. Grateful to have you! Honestly, yang sudah tu sudah. Kalau itulah pandangan orang terhadap aku, maksudnya akulah yang makin hari makin pelik.

Cara penyelesaian:

1. Alihkan perhatian
2. Kukuhkan jati diri (eerr.. boleh keh?) ** Payah2 sangat, tutup aje akaun ni! Kan senang? 

Ok, back to live a normal life! =)

Dear Maizatul Suraya, no need to sakit-sakit kepala, dear. Ini bukan masalah orang Melayu, cuma masalah diri aku sendiri yang berkecelaruan. Maklumlah, musim-musim baligh ni! Kau pun of course faham kan sayang? Aku minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki sebab kadang-kadang aku terstep in to your life, mempengaruhi fikiran kau dengan mencadangkan idea-idea yang tak sepatutnya. Won't happen again, ok sayang? Let's get back to our normal life.

Kepada Mimosa San,

Aku pun nak minta maaf kat kau atas segala salah dan silap aku. Maafkan aku. Kalau nak specifickan, banyak dosa aku kat kau. Ok? Kalau aku boleh baiki diri sendiri, kau pun boleh. Kita semua boleh! =) Cuma perlukan semangat yang kuat. Itu aje!

What a relief! =) 

Dah biasa dah.

As-salam =)

Saya dah tak ada apa-apa untuk dikatakan lagi. Saya sangat terkilan dengan sikap macam tu. Dari dulu sampai sekarang memang tak pernah nak berubah. Kalau perlukan sangat-sangat baru dicari. Itu pun untuk kesenangan sendiri. Sejujurnya, saya sangat sedih! 

Tak apa. Peringatan untuk diri sendiri.

Sekian.

I wish I have guts.

As-salam, again! =)

Really hoping that I have the guts to tell you that:

1. You are not always right.
2. You act too stupid sometimes.

Am I really gonna do that? Of course not! Siapalah saya. Pacar yang hina, rendahnya martabatku. Hey, be happy lar .. less a burden! Stick that in mind~ OK? No need too emotional entry, no need an emotional entry .. just an emoticon will do .. =)

HAPPY, live today like it your last day!

Mom will understand! 

Awak sangat comel la~

As-salam =)

Mak, abang nak basikal ni!

Sangat comel bila tengok budak2 menangis2 merayu minta dibelikan barang. Haha.. teringat zaman kecil2 dulu hah! Aku pun macam tu jugak. Tapi tak de la sampai berguling2 bila mama babah tak belikan. Cuma aku akan diam sampai ke sudah.. kononnya protes la tu kan? Haha ..

Gambar atas ni aku ambil kat pasaraya mini bertentangan dengan Bank Pertanian (dekat dengan Jimat tuh!). Masa ni Ayen keluar beli batang panjang nak buat ganti batang penyapu sawang dia. Aku and cik abang duk tunggu je dalam kereta. Budak laki ni cool je bila mak dia tak mahu belikan.. tapi adik perempuan dia  ... haha .. sangat drama la! Aku tak tahan gelak. 

Akhir cerita, mak dia belikan jugak basikal tu! Barulah si adik ni berhenti menangis dan nampak la terukir secalit senyuman di bibir. Hai, drama! drama!

Apa2 pun, depa ni memang sangat comel! Setuju?